Not Very Active

I know that I have been a slacker on this blog, but my life has been completely crazy. Although I do realize life is often crazy and we must not let the craziness stop us from living. However I have to admit lately I have been having doubts about this blogging process. I am just wondering if this is indeed the route for me. I am not sure if I want someone 30 years from now to come and read my thoughts on life and expect me to feel the same way. Also there is the desire to be more candid, but I can't seem to be able to find a way to accomplish that without telling the entire world about my personal life and business. Is that just the cost that is paid for blogging? I guess what I am really saying is I am looking for my path as a blogger for my medium that makes me happy. If anyone has any suggestions on finding their blogger identity let me know. Ok guys goodbye for now.

Best thing I Never Had

I have to admit I have been totally touched by Beyonce's new song Best Thing I never had. I am sure if you are over the age of 21. You have probably been heart broken by now. The funny thing about heartache is that you never forget it. The pain grows weaker but sometimes can still be re experienced. The pain has no timeline for when it should or should not leave, or when it will return.
Often I find that even if the relationship was horrible we find ourselves wanting to go back to a love once known, because it is comfortable and familiar. We remember all of the good things and want that love so bad. Maybe you were cheated on, played, abused ...whatever it was. I am sure this song can touch you.
The reason I love this song so much is the satisfaction and contentment B displays throughout the song. It is so playful and she seems happy with her new life even if in the past there was pain. It is interesting that she is able to acknowledge this pain, but yet it is not distressing for her. It is almost liberating to know that she was so foolish to love that person who slighted her. I guess in a way it provides hope that maybe liberation is there for us all eventually. If we keep our heads up and live right.

Enjoy the video

I need a Vacation

I have not been on vacation in almost a year now. I can't believe it. I am starting to feel the heaviness of stagnancy steeping into my life. I am usually traveling almost every 3 months to somewhere so for me to have been in the same place for almost a year. Well that is dishearten. I have taking a few day trips and made a trip in November to my grandparents house for their 60th anniversary. That was fun, but I have not went to a new city just to explore or shop, or lay on a beach with my favorite books for a week straight. UGGG I need a break. Unfortunately I do not see a vacation anywhere in my near future. I have a busy year planned and it doesn't leave much time for fun, but maybe I should take a three 3day weekend and hit the beach or something.



Well since I can't go on vacation right now I decided to share a few pictures from my trip to Boston a while back... Enjoy

Savoring the Moment

Today I was sitting in my apartment listening to Jeremy Camp, Hillsong, Ginny Owens on repeat. I was just sitting on my love seat taking in how great I find my apartment. How great I find my personal space. It is then that it hit me...This may be the last time in my life when I can have a space that is entirely my own. If I get a roommate next year. I may have to get rid of a few things. My place will no longer be catered to my every need. It will no longer be filled with everything that I love the most.


Then the idea crossed my mind. OH MY GOSH what if I fall in love and get married. My space will never be just mine again. I will not even have a bedroom all to myself. Right now everything is perfect. Everything is perfectly the way I want it. I may never feel as comfortable or complete in an area again, because it may never be fully mine again.


I have to admit I found this thought sad, but I also found the thought special. It made me realize that I need to love every moment of this and make it my dream place, because I may never be able to live this dream again. I will live many of my other dreams though. Such as buying a home and making it a home with a husband, but I will be living a different dream. When I have a roommate I will have a chick flick movie night buddy, so don't get me wrong. I know for every con there is a pro, but for this moment I am going to savor my independence, creativity, and freedom while I can. One day I will be looking back at this moment thinking MAN those were the good ole days...be blessed my friends XOXO

A Few of My Favorite Things

Have you ever heard the saying there is no place like home? Well when I was younger there was no place like home because all of my favorite people lived there, but as I grew older I moved out and got a small apartment that I now call home. So what makes this place to special to me? Well I have no idea, but I do know that I love being home. There is no place more comforting than to walk through my front door. So I decided I would share with you a few of my favorite things at home. Things that give a warm and fuzzy feeling when I walk through the door.





My pet. I adore her, because she is always there and so cuddly. What would home be like without this sweet animal to greet me at the door every day with a sweet meow.

This was a gift from my family for my balcony garden. I thought it was so sweet that they actually thought about what I could really use and I love the saying they wrote on it. " May your life flourish. " It is so fitting for its purpose.









My bamboo wind chime. I don't know I just find this piece charming, and it looks so good hanging there on my balcony. It just creates such a warm environment.



















I wish I could of captured a better picture of this art piece, but this is my favorite piece inside of my house. I love looking at this picture of Amsterdam. I always feel that I'm transported from my living room to this place when I stare at the picture.




I keep live flowers in my living room, and they always add a different flavor to the atmosphere. The best thing about live flowers is that you get to change your look every time you buy new flowers. I really love these because they are bright and sunny.



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Who Cares What Men Think

Ok ladies have you noticed how in every magazine or at every lunch date with your girls there is talk about what men like the most. For example the cover of Cosmo would read something like this " Little Things To Make You More Attractive to Men" or " The Top Ten Looks Men Love." If you are anything like me you have a whole entourage of female friends who also bring up this topic. They say things such as "oh girl I have to straighten my hair men hate curly hair", or "I really love my baby doll shirt but men hate these shirts" etc. etc.





Well here is where I stand. I am over it all. One guy likes it straight another one curly. One thinks the baby doll shirt is cute the other thinks it makes the girl look pregnant. One loves quiet girls the other prefers outgoing women. Really ladies???? Are we really just going to sit here and cater ourselves to men. Think about it. How many times have you met a guy and he says one thing and does a completely different thing for an example " I would never wear pink" and then 6 mon later he is rocking a pink polo?





Also have you ever noticed your closest guy friend be the biggest player in the world, and then suddenly one day get really serious about a girl? Or maybe your guy friend has a type of girl and would never date a certain type, but 1 year later you find him holding hands with the type of girl he would never consider previously.





Do you know why this is the case? The reason is everything is on a case by case base. Generalizations do not work at all. Ladies you just have to be yourself whatever that is, and there will be beauty that flows from that, and trust me the men population pool will not dry up because you don't do everything that you think they will like. People are transient. People change constantly, and people change due to their exposure. So be yourself. Do what makes you happy. Do what works for you, because at the end of the day MOST relationships don't work out , and you have to live with yourself. So to thy own self be true.





XOXO

New Beginnings

I have always had a love for plants. When I was a child my mother would give me a small plot of land to grow corn, squash , and watermelon on every summer. However I realized that I was a good plant owner when I was 15. A friend of my mother's had these house plants that were completely dieing. I decided that I would make them come back to life. After a few weeks of doctoring the plants they were vibrant once more. As a gift for taking such great care of the plants, he gave me a plant.

I loved and adored that plant, until one day my younger sibling cut it into pieces...

So I decided to give my green thumb a another try this year. Instead of buying germinated plants at Home Depot this year I decided to buy seeds just to test how good I really am. That was three weeks ago. Here is the progress. Do you have any planting secrets?

The Tools Week 1

Flower and Pepper Seeds

Since I was using the dirt I used to plant my flowers last year. I made sure to use a lot of plant food.
























The progress 3 weeks later